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date:Thursday, November 27, 2008
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okay this is a i feel like writing so i write post read it if you want if not just don't.

okay seriously ryt, idk why ppl scold me cos i am different in np and outside np. well, during np i can be real freaking strict and scolding ppl like a mad shit. then outside np, i can be real crazy and rules dont matter to me anymore. well is there a problem with it?

seriously i dun think so you noe. during np yes i expect the cadets to call me by my rank then my name. if not NCO or instructor during camp. if you dont call me by that you will get serious shit from me cos during np NCOs deserve the respect there. but outside np that's a diff story. i will play like crazy with cadets and some of them know it too. i wun expect cadets to call me cpl joven or nco or whatever. juz call me joven. some even call me chinguan if not call me nicknames. but seriously i dun care. is there a problem with that? no.

seriously what is the problem with playing with cadets? i dun see a problem there. it's just a ball game or going home with them. isnt that what we always do with them before NCO-ship?

well since we are NCOs alr of cos during np we are of different authority. for that i follow the rules. but well in front of squadmates of cos i can slack at certain times ryt? not like when we are as a squad alone i have to give that NCO look or whatever you call that.

back to the NCO-cadet issue. well, outside np, what is the problem with playing with them like crazy? what is the problem with gossiping with them or chatting with them? dudes, it's outside np. doing all these wun make you get punished or get pumped or asking you to hold up a rifle in mid-air and run ard the parade square 10 times. it wont ryt? so why cant i do that?

some would say that cadets will climb above my head. well, apparently there isnt any at me yet except for a few would called me by my name during np. and i warned them alr. i believe that they know what to do. and if you implement the correct approach, you can be real nice outside np. sometimes even during np.

a few really good examples are the ppl of higher authority. some of them can joke and laugh with us outside np. and during np, we still show the due respect they deserve ryt? why cant these things that they done be learnt? seriously it's possible.

and one thing to make clear of, this is not face-off or multi-personalities. it's juz doing what you are supposed to do during certain occasions and be yourself aft that. and if you treat diff ppl with diff attitude, in my opinion this is called bias and i believe the unit dosent support this attitude ryt?

and another point, i dun treat my cadets as subordinates. i seriously dun. i treat them more like my frens. my peers. so frens are for what? partly playing ryt? so i play with them. fullstop.

seriously i dun believe all these would affect my 2nd posting or whatever. even if it does, i dont care i seriously dun care alr. i am fine with any post now. i am not into the higher authority thingy and i swear that i am not into it since i was born. i dun go and fight for power and whatever.

treating cadets like frens and cadets treating you as frens isnt sucking up. i noe the way i tok to officers sometimes are like fren fren like that. but well, this is me. i treat everybody like this. but to officers, i will give that due respect.

seriously all these things make me feel like not caring about anything anymore sometimes. i care abt some things, in the end i will meet up with lots of trouble. troblesome, totally vexing. whats more these are more of volunteering work.

but well like what someone told me before because i care then things will work. and i am pretty happy abt tt. plus all those encouragements my squadmates and some cadets have been giving me, it made me wanna work more for np and np will now be my motivation for everything i do.

well upon all the points i mentioned above esp the top ones, i think tt's the way seriously. and well i believe what i done is still right. oh and the rules i am referring to is respecting NCOs rules. yea all above most of it is about the NCO-cadets must distance thing.

okay done with this. anyways this post is not aimed or pin-pointed at anyone. it's just how i feel. and all these wun affect my currently happy mood now :D

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date:Monday, November 3, 2008
title:NCO-ship
Post post haha. kays group meeting was quite okay cos apparantly nothing serious came. kays then went to eat and heard a lot of liao4? lol kays aft tt went home. well sth happened and i started emo-ing. tuition. haha sometimes i think the english tuition makes me more relaxed cos it's very innocent there yea? as in no backstabbing blabla... kays then home-ed. haha realised sth and i am damn damn damn happy now lol. goody moody.

kays hmm idk what to comment abt some things... and i will not use webdings to cover this okay.

okay it's not easy taking major posts or OIC for events you see. cos it's like you have to do everything(which i dun mind) but get all kinds of nonsense from some source that i dun wanna say.

NCO-ship haixs i miss cadet life like siao man. at least there isn't all those vexing things that actually have no link with np kays? i dun mind the proposals and work blablabla. ask me to do i will do one. but just tt you know that source is damn irritating. it can really piss you off like 10000000x you know.

and apparantly, i still have to cope with my studies. i noe that i am very very weak in certain subjects and i am trying to put an effort in it. but some ppl will just dun noe(no one will know anyways)... but sometimes i am really too tired to use my brain le. some days you know. you just feel like laughing and forgetting everything.

idk lar. it's not tt i dun like the work that NCO-ship has gave me. i seriously dun mind. like what some ppl said i am too enthu in np muz relax sometimes. but np is the thing that make me relax? then all these crap comes and i dunno what else i can do to relax other than chatting with ppl and sometimes some LOL stuff will come out although it may be lame sometimes.

well... NCO-ship also change a lot of things in my life. like what i need and cannot do. but yea some parts of after NCO-ship is nice like the national day parade part(has tt got to do with NCO-ship in the first place?) gah... but well at least you noe i see the real side of some ppl through NCO-ship. some CIs are really nice to give you all the info you need for your proposal. then yea TOs are all damn nice to help you all the time even in your studies. then NCO-ship made me make more frens(and really is a lot!).

NCO-ship also made me a more experienced person. you know like i can give advices to ppl on their work on np blabla... i also get to know a lot of insider info(which sometimes have to link with NP!) haha. NCO-ship made me a more random person too.

NCO-ship sorta improve my physique though. being the pt head, apparantly i have to be fit yea. kkays nth much to prove on this.

NCO-ship needs me to be some sort of perfect in almost everything. even my commands. as in there are diff ways for diff CCAs i know that, but does it matter? why dont all the CCAs open conference and sign peace treaty or a pact? omg i am so into history lol. but wouldnt it be so much better? as in all the CCAs live in peace and harmony, just like the NDP everyone cheering and helping each other. i bet my ex class 205'07 would love tt cos quite a number of us are from UG and yea we sort of want peace but circumstances dun allow us to? idk.

in a sentence, all i can say is: NCO-ship 讓我歡喜讓我憂(if you uds traditional chinese) haixz...

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