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okay this is a i feel like writing so i write post read it if you want if not just don't.

okay seriously ryt, idk why ppl scold me cos i am different in np and outside np. well, during np i can be real freaking strict and scolding ppl like a mad shit. then outside np, i can be real crazy and rules dont matter to me anymore. well is there a problem with it?

seriously i dun think so you noe. during np yes i expect the cadets to call me by my rank then my name. if not NCO or instructor during camp. if you dont call me by that you will get serious shit from me cos during np NCOs deserve the respect there. but outside np that's a diff story. i will play like crazy with cadets and some of them know it too. i wun expect cadets to call me cpl joven or nco or whatever. juz call me joven. some even call me chinguan if not call me nicknames. but seriously i dun care. is there a problem with that? no.

seriously what is the problem with playing with cadets? i dun see a problem there. it's just a ball game or going home with them. isnt that what we always do with them before NCO-ship?

well since we are NCOs alr of cos during np we are of different authority. for that i follow the rules. but well in front of squadmates of cos i can slack at certain times ryt? not like when we are as a squad alone i have to give that NCO look or whatever you call that.

back to the NCO-cadet issue. well, outside np, what is the problem with playing with them like crazy? what is the problem with gossiping with them or chatting with them? dudes, it's outside np. doing all these wun make you get punished or get pumped or asking you to hold up a rifle in mid-air and run ard the parade square 10 times. it wont ryt? so why cant i do that?

some would say that cadets will climb above my head. well, apparently there isnt any at me yet except for a few would called me by my name during np. and i warned them alr. i believe that they know what to do. and if you implement the correct approach, you can be real nice outside np. sometimes even during np.

a few really good examples are the ppl of higher authority. some of them can joke and laugh with us outside np. and during np, we still show the due respect they deserve ryt? why cant these things that they done be learnt? seriously it's possible.

and one thing to make clear of, this is not face-off or multi-personalities. it's juz doing what you are supposed to do during certain occasions and be yourself aft that. and if you treat diff ppl with diff attitude, in my opinion this is called bias and i believe the unit dosent support this attitude ryt?

and another point, i dun treat my cadets as subordinates. i seriously dun. i treat them more like my frens. my peers. so frens are for what? partly playing ryt? so i play with them. fullstop.

seriously i dun believe all these would affect my 2nd posting or whatever. even if it does, i dont care i seriously dun care alr. i am fine with any post now. i am not into the higher authority thingy and i swear that i am not into it since i was born. i dun go and fight for power and whatever.

treating cadets like frens and cadets treating you as frens isnt sucking up. i noe the way i tok to officers sometimes are like fren fren like that. but well, this is me. i treat everybody like this. but to officers, i will give that due respect.

seriously all these things make me feel like not caring about anything anymore sometimes. i care abt some things, in the end i will meet up with lots of trouble. troblesome, totally vexing. whats more these are more of volunteering work.

but well like what someone told me before because i care then things will work. and i am pretty happy abt tt. plus all those encouragements my squadmates and some cadets have been giving me, it made me wanna work more for np and np will now be my motivation for everything i do.

well upon all the points i mentioned above esp the top ones, i think tt's the way seriously. and well i believe what i done is still right. oh and the rules i am referring to is respecting NCOs rules. yea all above most of it is about the NCO-cadets must distance thing.

okay done with this. anyways this post is not aimed or pin-pointed at anyone. it's just how i feel. and all these wun affect my currently happy mood now :D

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